Still waiting

I am still waiting. I am beginning to hate the way the Army works. They have yet again pushed back dates of redeployment. I really don't know how much more of this I can take really. I am on the verge of loosing my mind. I went to the welcome home ceremony the other night for 250 soldiers of Dereke's BN. That was hard for me. I had to leave right after the soldiers were released. I couldn't sit there and see how happy the other families were to get there loved ones home. That is FREAKIN sad I know. I guess the jealous side of me came out. In Michelle's words all we got out of it was a freakin tea shirt. LOL. I am trying to keep my hopes up. I try to tell myself you went 14 months what is one more week but after awhile I cant lie to myself anymore. I do have to thank god that I do have some really great friends here who really understand what I am going threw. Thanks girls for dealing with my negativity!!

Key Lime Pie

So I have to say that I met a group of women this weekend that really are GREAT ARMY SPOUSES and they do with pride! I mean I knew 3 of them but never hung out with them. I have to say they are great very very funny! I had a lot of fun with you girls. You do make this whole Army thing worth it. I have met lots and lots of people on this journey my life has taken me, but these girls really love doing and being what they love the most. A proud Army Spouse!! Just wanted to say thanks for inviting me into your alliance!! LOL

Thoughts

I just got done reading a post that really brought me to tears. Thanks Michelle. It has me praying and thanking God for everything he has given me. It's funny that there are people out there who just have no clue what life is like for some families. I can't help but be so grateful for what I truly have. Trust me there are days were I can't help but think that my life sucks. Then I think back on my past what I was like 5 years ago where my life was headed. I will tell you no where good chances are I probley would be dead by now. I was one of the few lucky women out there who just stumble across a amazing man. I call this man my hero not only because he is a American soldier but he was my rescuer. I think about the families of our fallen soldiers and could never in a million years imagine how that feels or even how I could get over something so terrible. Thinking back 5 years ago a American soldier didn't really mean anything to me. I just thought hey that's there choice and that's the career they picked and boy was I wrong. My thoughts and feelings for these men and women are tremendous. I have never looked up to such great people in my life. Yes this was there choice but none of them do it for themselves. They do it for me, for my son, for you, for your families and friends. That is a true hero in my eyes. God Bless all you Soldiers out there and Thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you scrafice on a everyday basis.

Huge Eye Opener!!

So I havnt been a military spouse for that long. I am going on my 3rd year. My husband has been deployed for 14 months now this is my first deployment his 3rd. We have been married almost 3 years and today was a huge eye opener on what military life really holds. I thought when my husband deployed it was going to the end of the world. I had no clue how to handle this life. At the time my son was only 11 months old but I was lucky enough to fall upon some wonderful army spouses who led me the way. So I grabbed my big girl panties and became the military wife I am now. Untill this afternoon when I attended a memorial service for a fallen soldier in my husbands BN. I have never seen just a sad thing in my life. I have been to some really sad funerals family, friends, babies, kids ect. But today was by far the worst. For any of you that have never been to one wow it was heart wreanching. So this brings me to the fact that there is so much that friends families kids spouses and soldiers go threw to give us our freedom. This poor family today there isnt anything in this world that is going to take away the pain they feel. This BN will be home shortly and something so tragic had to happen. It was a huge eye opener to me that this happens and it happens way more than any one knows. My heart goes out to all families and friends of all fallen soldiers.