Forever

Well it had been forever since I wrote a blog. I have been crazy busy since we got back on leave a few weeks ago. We moved my mother in law back with us. That seems to be going alright so far. For those of you that havnt heard I am expecting. I am six weeks along. Yeah yeah I know I found out way to early and this is going to be the longest pregnancy of my life. But the last D will be getting fixed after this one! I told Petyon the other day and doesnt seem to give a crap. I think he will get more into once I begin to show more. I guess other than that I havnt really been doing much. Oh yeah I cry and cry and cry I am a emotional basket case the last week or so. D and I have been at each other throats. He just doesnt seem to get it or wait maybe its me LOL. Well not much more to say here. Michelle I am waiting to hear how the camping trip went!

Home Again!!

Well we are back in MO now!! Thank god I mean don't get me wrong I LOVE camping but we did it for over a month and that was just to dang much! We took 5 days to get to MI, we stayed in MO a night then in IL a night then 3 nights at Benton Harbor MI which was wonderful. We were right one lake MI. Peyton loved the whole camping thing. Dirt and bugs are his new thing now.

Dereke took everything well for the most part. I mean besides having me at the back of the camper directing him didn't go so smoothly. Or get this we stayed at this campground a few miles from our home town. It was alright for the most part until one morning we woke up to our neighbor dumping his septic tank in our camp site. Yeah dumping his SEPTIC TANK. For those of you who don't know what that is all about it is your shit tank. So need less to say we packed up and left that campground. We then stayed at wonderful campground in our home town. Spent the next two weeks there. VERY nice its a Church campground but they had all differ ant types of things to do. They had a water slide, confidence course, zip cords in and out of water, canoeing and a rock wall. We had a very nice time there.

I took everything well for the most part. I mean taking laundry to family houses to wash sucked. Also showering in cold water for 90% of the time was shitty also. Oh yeah don't let me forget this one I broke my toe!! Yeah got up from the table in the camper slipped and kick a metal pole. Yeah I know dumb ass right well lesson learned it was very painful all swollen and black. Then come to find out after a 4 hour wait to be seen by a doc they do nothing. Nothing at all oh they wanted me to wear some wooden boot but didn't matter if I had it or not it wasn't going to help. So I chose not to wear it, it wouldn't of matched any of my other heels LOL.

Well any ways I am glad to be home and sleep in my own bed and shower in my own shower. I hope you are all doing good and are enjoying your leave. Talk to you all soon.

You girls were right!!

Well girls they finally got me last night. On my way home I got pulled over by the effin GAME WORDEN and got a 75$ ticket for being on my cell. I was being so careful to I even thought to myself damn there are a lot of MP's out tonight. So I waited till I got closer to home. Get this I wasn't even talking yet I was trying to get service to call the old man and ask him if he needed me to bring anything home. Then this dude pulls me over in a civilian truck and turns out to be the game worden. He sneaks up to my truck and pokes his head around my window like I was going to freak out and lose it or something. I guess that is part of being cautious when they run my name and first see that I have a CCW then see that my cranky husband just hot home from Iraq I am not sure. But he looked terrified walking up to my truck. Over all though he was a very nice guy. Well lesson learned I should of listened to you guys. Time to get my HANDS FREE DEVICE OUT!!

Just the three of us!

Well the last post didn't have the excitement in it like it should have. I just wanted to put a quick post out that things are going better. We are slowly getting back into routine. Some new some old. But all in all things are good. All I know is that I can not wait for block leave. I am so ready for a vaca!! We are going back to MI to see the family, which will be interesting. Wish me luck!

I dont have a whole lot to say right now about homecoming, but I do want to post some pics. I will update on how everything is going once I get my head and heart straight. Hope everyone is enjoying there familes as a whole again.

YEEAAHH!!!

Okay so Michelle Dana and Amber this is going to be a good one. Not depressing and full of tears! Tomorrow is the big day! My hero is coming home to me! I cant wait! If you can tell by all my !!!!!!'s. I am finally ready I have everything I have to do done! Girls can you believe it after all this waiting and crying its finally time? I mean how many times have we said 4 more days? Really it was getting old! Well hope you all are getting your things done and I will see all your bright shining faces tomorrow morning! MMMMUAH!!

GGGRRRR

I don't know what to even write or even say right now. I just have so many emotions right now its crazy. I am nervous anxious nauseous excited scared and over all very very happy. This is my first time having to go threw a homecoming. This has been one of the hardest things I have ever gone threw. I put so much stress on myself to make every one happy and to do everything right with the FRG. I am just plain ready for him to come home. I am ready to be a family again. I am ready to have my husband hero and father of my lil man home with us. I want nothing more right now then to have a quit evening at home dinner at the table, laying around cuddling watching tv, then a little bed room fun and then falling alseep in my lovers arms. I took the littlest thing for granted when he was home now after 14 months of not having it I will never do that again. I am going to enjoy every minute I have with him. Good or bad!! I never thought I was strong enough to do anything like this before so I have learned a lot threw all of this. I have become a very stong independent women. That is about the only thing I can thank the Army for threw all of this. Well that is all I say for now. Wish me luck with everything!!

Still waiting

I am still waiting. I am beginning to hate the way the Army works. They have yet again pushed back dates of redeployment. I really don't know how much more of this I can take really. I am on the verge of loosing my mind. I went to the welcome home ceremony the other night for 250 soldiers of Dereke's BN. That was hard for me. I had to leave right after the soldiers were released. I couldn't sit there and see how happy the other families were to get there loved ones home. That is FREAKIN sad I know. I guess the jealous side of me came out. In Michelle's words all we got out of it was a freakin tea shirt. LOL. I am trying to keep my hopes up. I try to tell myself you went 14 months what is one more week but after awhile I cant lie to myself anymore. I do have to thank god that I do have some really great friends here who really understand what I am going threw. Thanks girls for dealing with my negativity!!

Key Lime Pie

So I have to say that I met a group of women this weekend that really are GREAT ARMY SPOUSES and they do with pride! I mean I knew 3 of them but never hung out with them. I have to say they are great very very funny! I had a lot of fun with you girls. You do make this whole Army thing worth it. I have met lots and lots of people on this journey my life has taken me, but these girls really love doing and being what they love the most. A proud Army Spouse!! Just wanted to say thanks for inviting me into your alliance!! LOL

Thoughts

I just got done reading a post that really brought me to tears. Thanks Michelle. It has me praying and thanking God for everything he has given me. It's funny that there are people out there who just have no clue what life is like for some families. I can't help but be so grateful for what I truly have. Trust me there are days were I can't help but think that my life sucks. Then I think back on my past what I was like 5 years ago where my life was headed. I will tell you no where good chances are I probley would be dead by now. I was one of the few lucky women out there who just stumble across a amazing man. I call this man my hero not only because he is a American soldier but he was my rescuer. I think about the families of our fallen soldiers and could never in a million years imagine how that feels or even how I could get over something so terrible. Thinking back 5 years ago a American soldier didn't really mean anything to me. I just thought hey that's there choice and that's the career they picked and boy was I wrong. My thoughts and feelings for these men and women are tremendous. I have never looked up to such great people in my life. Yes this was there choice but none of them do it for themselves. They do it for me, for my son, for you, for your families and friends. That is a true hero in my eyes. God Bless all you Soldiers out there and Thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you scrafice on a everyday basis.

Huge Eye Opener!!

So I havnt been a military spouse for that long. I am going on my 3rd year. My husband has been deployed for 14 months now this is my first deployment his 3rd. We have been married almost 3 years and today was a huge eye opener on what military life really holds. I thought when my husband deployed it was going to the end of the world. I had no clue how to handle this life. At the time my son was only 11 months old but I was lucky enough to fall upon some wonderful army spouses who led me the way. So I grabbed my big girl panties and became the military wife I am now. Untill this afternoon when I attended a memorial service for a fallen soldier in my husbands BN. I have never seen just a sad thing in my life. I have been to some really sad funerals family, friends, babies, kids ect. But today was by far the worst. For any of you that have never been to one wow it was heart wreanching. So this brings me to the fact that there is so much that friends families kids spouses and soldiers go threw to give us our freedom. This poor family today there isnt anything in this world that is going to take away the pain they feel. This BN will be home shortly and something so tragic had to happen. It was a huge eye opener to me that this happens and it happens way more than any one knows. My heart goes out to all families and friends of all fallen soldiers.